Well it has been over a year since I was last here. One of the reasons I am here is that a comment was posted by a wonder full person whose blog I have posted a link to at the bottom of this post.
But the real reason that I was moved to write was a dear friend of mine, a man who has over 27 years of sobriety, I have called him the “Lineman” in earlier writings, approached me last week and talked about his struggle with depression and how he felt it was winning. That is not something that is surprising for me as I have been led down this path of engaging with a a kind of “darkness” most run from.(Totally understandable that they do. Trust me I wish I was not on this path many many times.)
Yet here we are. When I went to my regular Saturday meeting, another friend informed me that the Lineman had voluntarily checked him self into a 72 hour hold at a local hospital. This may not seem like a big deal to most,(well to think about it, most dont think about depression let alone a stay in a “mental hospital) but it is to me. What I hear is my friend feels like his life is not worth living.
But on a different note, I had coffee with the Fanatic yesterday. It was really good to see her as she was on of the Four Musketeers who attended our “Depression in Sobriety,” meeting that we had for about 2 years in the local AA we are/were members of.
She has her journey and if she comes on her again she can send you to her blog if she is so inclined. I learned that one of my favorite bloggers, Monica Cassani, stopped blogging but that one of my other favorites, Therese Borchard, still is.
I dont want this all means, I was just moved to write a few words. I am hopeful that I can keep doing it as it helps me process some of my confusion and there are times, fewer than I would hope for, where I get some sense of clarity.
Please keep all of those who suffer in this world of projection of darkness in your thoughts. Many many of us are wandering out in a place we cant comprehend let alone understand.
(Also the graphics have changed completely so it might take me a day or two to figure out how to put pics back in)
I Dont Want To Talk About It 