“…When you’re waiting for a miracle!”(1)
Talking with a friend the other day and we were reflecting on the fact that we are both middle aged and yet we feel like we did when we were young. As I am sitting here I am wondering if it is due to the fact that we have some of those emotional conflicts that still persist below the level of consciousness that seem to carry more weight in our lives than we would hope!
There is so much angst in the world. I was at my meeting yesterday and was talking with my friend Spence. I have known Spence since, well since I was in my 20s. We both worked in the trades at that time and we did a long job together and we got to know each other. Apparently Spence knew my Dad, as he and my Dad were about the same age.
We were talking and he brought up the fact that it seemed to him like everyone in the room was suffering. I know that this view is narrow based on what this blog is about but Spence said that a few of our long time friends were looking sad and old.(Funny since Spence is at least 75!)
But I also learned this week that a dear dear friend of mine is getting divorced. Yes I know that is life but when you are older it is not as easy to work around these issues as it is say when you are in your 30s.
So coming full circle, depression and anxiety rob us of our ability to be present in our lives. Not all the time but enough that we cant see the forest for the trees. We cant be present to work through issues that would give us resolution to problems that would allow us to to have and keep relationships.
What is the cause of this? I dont know.
But I guess it comes down to doing the best we can. Trying to live up to the ideals we create or are born into projected onto us by our family and culture. I dont know about you but I am not a big believer in what our culture puts forward as being in and living a good life.
When I talk to my friend every day, I pray at some level that he gets the miracle that so many of us have as the only thing we hold onto. If you dont understand this, I commend you. Because it might mean that you dont have the underlying emotional conditioning that many of us who grew up in those families where you didnt talk about IT did!
Please say a prayer for those who suffered the tragedy that happened in Yountville last Friday. It affected a dear close friend of mine who was involved in the Pathways program from the beginning.
123 RV, SA, RW, PH, PA!
(1) “Waiting for a Miracle.” Bruce Cockburn