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Welcome Back my Friends to the Show that Never Ends

11665402_10152853758167167_7660227498252654124_nWell it has been over a year since I was last here.  One of the reasons I am here is that a comment was posted by a wonder full person whose blog I have posted a link to at the bottom of this post.

But the real reason that I was moved to write was a dear friend of mine, a man who has over 27 years of sobriety, I have called him the “Lineman” in earlier writings, approached me last week and talked about his struggle with depression and how he felt it was winning. That is not something that is surprising for me as I have been led down this path of engaging with a a kind of “darkness” most run from.(Totally understandable that they do.  Trust me I wish I was not on this path many many times.)

imagesYet here we are.  When I went to my regular Saturday meeting, another friend informed me that the Lineman had voluntarily checked him self into a 72 hour hold at a local hospital.  This may not seem like a big deal to most,(well to think about it, most dont think about depression let alone a stay in a “mental hospital) but it is to me.  What I hear is my friend feels like his life is not worth living.

But on a different note, I had coffee with the Fanatic yesterday.  It was really good to see her as she was on of the Four Musketeers who attended our “Depression in Sobriety,” meeting that we had for about 2 years in the local AA we are/were members of.

She has her journey and if she comes on her again she can send you to her blog if she is so inclined.  I learned that one of my favorite bloggers, Monica Cassani, stopped blogging but that one of my other favorites, Therese Borchard, still is.10347232_10201917599660507_5224584867827727870_n

I dont want this all means, I was just moved to write a few words.  I am hopeful that I can keep doing it as it helps me process some of my confusion and there are times, fewer than I would hope for, where I get some sense of clarity.

Please keep all of those who suffer in this world of projection of darkness in your thoughts.  Many many of us are wandering out in a place we cant comprehend let alone understand.

(Also the graphics have changed completely so it might take me a day or two to figure out how to put pics back in)

https://emergingfromthedarknight.wordpress.com/

4 thoughts on “Welcome Back my Friends to the Show that Never Ends

  1. I have been sober for 24 years now. I have just started a very good book on depression which speaks about how our need for connection at many levels which have been lost or are non existant can cause much depression and then there is often a grief component if there have been past losses never fully grieved. I feel so many people in sobriety used substances to deal with that kind of pain and I know Bill W was no stranger to depression. I am so glad if you feel inspired to share again. I have found a loving community here devoted to sharing their struggles. No matter how long we are in sobriety darkness can always claim us and connections that are authentic are the only way out. Lots of love Deborah

  2. I missed your acerbic wit my friend. As I get ready to head out to my Intensive Outpatient therapy group. 12 hours a week over 4 days. It’s like AA for depression and anxiety. DA? I have “ treatment resistant depression and PTSD. My next step is TMS. Transcranial magnetic stimulation. Pray to Ggod it helps, or Lemmy or whoever. Love you! R

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