I never saw what I did as something that was deepening me. I never saw what I did as something that was of value in any other way except for in the material realm. I think that what happened for me was when I got to the point that I had it all and yet I was empty, I didn’t know what the hell to do. That’s when the depression took over. That’s when there was nothing else to see except for that fog that the depression creates.*
The “senselessness and emptiness,” seems to describe much of what I see going on for people I know, for people I don’t know, and did for me.The hardest thing in the world is to not live in emptiness. Continually trying to feed that hole with material things to fill it up so I wouldn’t have to fill the scars that I carried on the inside of myself
The scars haven’t gone away. What I pray for from the Ggods is that they have peeled off a layer of the scar that keeps the warmth from getting in
We had a big earthquake here today. Lots of buildings got shaken, lots of glass was breaking, and the bricks were a fallen.
We don’t have anything in Napa over I think four or five stories. And almost everything that has been built here if it’s that big is post 1970s which makes it a little stronger. Some fireplaces fell down, the hall of justice loss of little piece of it’s façade. There’s quite a lot of metaphoric symbolism I could use there, but I won’t
 A wonderful and talented lady, who you can find her work at broadblogs.com, said this the other day.  Carl Jung *There were other factors that I dont put into the blog.
To my three brothers. R.I.P.