I saw Spider Man tonight. It was wonderful to see, and more than anything, to be able to see the movie as a metaphor and see how the collective unconscious gets played out in story. One scene that stood out for me.
Spider Man had stopped being Spider Man, and was just being his normal everyday self, after his girlfriend had died in his arms after the climactic confrontation with the evil power, Electro. He was depressed and could not function in his life. But another evil wrongdoer had unleashed a new mechanized monster. But since Spider Man was no longer willing and or able to fight evil, a young boy, who had been touched by Spider Man earlier in the movie, put on a Spider Man outfit and went and stood in front of the evil mechanized monster.
The scene was reminiscent of the woman standing in front of the tanks in Tiananmen square.
What was powerful metaphorically was how the little boy had stood up to the mechanized monster.
That has always been a struggle for me. I didnt learn to have courage as a boy. I did the things I was “supposed,” to do but did them more out of sense of what I was “supposed,” to do it, how I was supposed to act.
I didnt believe in myself, and have struggled my whole life with that. I just acted like I did and the depression was the tool that has allowed me to work through those issues to understand who I am and more importantly, what I do to try and get relief from the pain of the PTSD.
“Myth is much more important and true than history.” I am realizing more and more that holding on to anything in life, anything historical, does not serve me in any positive way. I was talking with my dear friend yesterday and we were talking about the death of their mother and how they felt incomplete about it. The thing that came up for me was to do a ritual. To create their own personal myth about their relationship with their mother to be able to have a symbol of the end of their relationship. To take it out of the concrete of history and put it into the mythical power of the metaphor.
“The demon that you can swallow gives you it’s power, and the greater life’s pain, the greater life’s reply.” I swallowed the demon of my father’s history. I took on his pain and fear and made it my own. We lived our lives based on some unspoken truths about who we were supposed to be even though those truths were not true.
“Gods suppressed become devils, and often it is these devils whom we first encounter when we turn inward.” It is amazing how I picked these quotes to work with today. I have dealt with those devils for the last 3+ years.
It is time to listen to the Ggods and Ggoddesses who speak about love and kindness. No longer do I have to listen to the God of pain and fear that is so dominant in MY culture.
Thanks Spider Man!
Quotes by Joseph Campbell.