After I read this quote yesterday I went for a walk and ended up in the cemetery. (I want to understand what we are doing here, so I can share it with others so that they can get better.) I went to the cemetery to see my Grandmas grave. I was walking away from it and as I was walking along, interestingly in the opposite direction than where I needed to go, I found my 5th grade teachers headstone. That brought back wonderful memories. In my hometown, they put the academically smart kids together in 5th grade. Ms. Meldrum was our teacher.
She was a proud, upright woman. Even then she had that long flowing white hair that teachers had then. She was around 50 when I was in 5th grade. I remember Ms. Meldrum, because like Ms. Toews, my first grade teacher, she was a woman really liked me and supported me.
I guess I went to my Grandmas grave to get some psychic energy from her. Since I had never met her, my only image of her was in the pictures i saw when I was a kid. She looked a lot like my Aunt Charlotte, who also loved and supported me.
Wow what I am noticing when I write this is how much I am looking for the images of love and support from all the women in my life, presently and historically, from every woman except one, my mother.
Jung talks about the energy of the feminine, the anima, that we all carry. I dont know about that, I only know that I need something that i am looking for in the images of women. If anyone has any input on this idea I would love to hear it.
This journey through depression can be hellish. Yesterday was a hard day, however, please dont think that it was not a rewarding one. I talked to friends who love me, I found solace, albeit temporarily, from sitting at my grandmother’s grave.
Please say a prayer for all of those who are suffering. There is a dis-ease that is creeping into the soul of the world. I cant tell you how long it has been here or why it is. I can only tell you that the pace of the race is increasing. Why? Is it because that part of our being we are dissociated from that we need is starting to make it’s power felt.
I know that this does not bring my friend’s relief from their suffering. I am working on trying to learn how to do that. Not just for them, but for us. If I heal, you heal, If you heal, I heal. It is that simple.
123 RV, SA, JW
*My dear friend Lacy posted this on our Facebook page for our class in college yesterday. It is something James Hillman said at a symposium on Jung’s Red Book.
I also loved my friend Vic’s blog today. http://shardsofsilence.wordpress.com/2014/01/24/isla-del-sol-titicaca-bolivia/