So often, and it happens unconsciously probably more than consciously, I want to think that something is “wrong” with me when I am disturbed. I watched a video interview of James Hillman and he was saying that the disturbance is telling us something. It is the psyche prompting us to look at what is going on in our lives, to address issues that are in our lives, even if we deny them.
But we want to say that there is something wrong with us. That any disturbance is a negative thing. In some way we are not doing something right.
This reminds me of the Joseph Campbell saying “The fates lead those who will, drag those who wont.” Those darn fates!! I am sad that the life I led before has been deconstructed, very, very painfully. It is still happening. But I have been led to this place where I get to study where two of my favorite mentors, Campbell and Hillman, left their libraries. I know, I know that might sound a little strange. But both of those men tried to do something noble, heroic in the classical sense. They tried to make it so that we could understand the world in which we live in better than we do.
When I am struggling with my depression, I, out of an unconscious habit that is so ingrained in me I don’t have to even think about it, immediately go into punishing myself. I am usually not punishing myself for the thing that I am struggling with. It is usually because of the simple fact that I am struggling, because I “dont have my shit together.”
“Psychology, the notion of helping people is making them calm, passive and stupid.” This is where I disagree with most out of what goes on out in the world. When you get angry and exhibit it, when people take the liberty to tell you how you should live, what you should think, how you should see others, it rails against what I know intuitively. I know nothing about what you or any other person “should,” do. What makes anyone think they know what any other person needs to do. Someone may need to walk away from something similar to what another person might not need to walk away from. Who knows? Not me.
Why is that? Is it because soul is not included in the realm of the psychological paradigm of what is acceptable because of who or what is dictating the paradigm? I think so.
All quotes from James Hillman
123 R.V. Forgiveness is about loving that childish part of us that can be impetuous.