To do this, to really listen to what was going in inside of me, meant I had to give up the world that I had created on the outside. At least that is what I thought. What I have since learned is that my depression was so severe that I could not function in the outside world any longer.
Covertly depressed men turn to …activities to gain relief from distress.
The psychic energy I had mustered to go out and face the outside world day after day was no longer available to me. The one quality I had always relied on, my whole life, was to be able to work as hard if not harder than the next guy. When that was no longer available to me, I was sunk. I could not keep running.
But when I did make the choice, or more likely than not, when the choice was made for me, I turned over my life as much as I could to healing the wounds that I was carrying and running from at the same time. I met people who were put in my life to help me heal. I found support in friends who I didnt think I would find it in. I gained a relationship with my self that I never had.
 Joseph Campbell
 Terrence Real